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Oct. 20th, 2010 10:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thedarlingtonshewolfChanging things is hard when you have no energy. I must rejoin a sorta agency thing today, but I don't want to because I will need to go through security clearance with my bank to do it and I've forgotten my banking password. Again.
I feel so undervalued and unloved, this must be another dip. A trigger last night, not intentional. So here I am again, I just screamed at him, he wants me to try hard, make things happen, be constructive, and all I want to do is cry.
The Thing That Happened cannot help my mood right now. There is no point me going into work.I wish it was all over.
I wonder if I suffer clinical depression. Certainly no sleep and all the rest of it. I don't know, I have to get up and do things, I have to...
I can't.
I feel so undervalued and unloved, this must be another dip. A trigger last night, not intentional. So here I am again, I just screamed at him, he wants me to try hard, make things happen, be constructive, and all I want to do is cry.
The Thing That Happened cannot help my mood right now. There is no point me going into work.I wish it was all over.
I wonder if I suffer clinical depression. Certainly no sleep and all the rest of it. I don't know, I have to get up and do things, I have to...
I can't.
